My alter ego loves someone?

i made an alter ego. but hes from a different gender. imma girl. you see theres this girl on a chat site that he really likes. though really i wanted him to be with me sinc hes like an imaginary friend sorta. but i met this girl who hes really digging. its like he has a mind of his own and just tells her things that actually happened to me but he puts other tails in there from time to time. its silly since im not lesbian nor would i be but i cant stop thinking of her. am i crazy for doing this in a way.